Wow, would you look at that...its interim, yeah.  I had a 2 credit class, so it only went for two weeks, so this last week i have off, and now all I am gonna do is play video games and sleep. Its gonna be awesome.  I just started playing Silent Hill 2, I know that I have had it for about 2 years now, but I had Silent Hill (the first one) for about 3 before I finally beat it. But I got Silent Hill 3 tonight...and its a long story that I am too lazy to recite at this time.  But hopefully I will get done with the second, and maybe the third by the end of the week, highly unlikely, but whatever.  Last night was awesome, Jason Joey and I went to Perkins at about 4 or 5 in the morning cause we were playing Trivial Persuit earlier and they both had a craving for french toast.  So we went. It was hilareous.  Ugh, I suddenly dont feel like typing anymore.  But I have to mention that I am a BETA Tester for Resident Evil: Outbreak.  It probibily should arrive today or the next few days, but whatever.  well, catch ya later. Maybe I'll watch a movie.

12/20/03  7:55 pm

I hate Animal Crossing.  Its pointless, but for some reason I cant stop playing it.  I don’t know if its cause its better than cleaning my room, or if its just the fact that I like shaking trees and finding a desk that was hiding in a pine tree.  If you don’t know what the game is like, go look on a gaming site, I’m too lazy to explain it right now.  You should just be happy that I am writing a journal during my vacation.  Hell, like there really is anything better to do.  OH yeah, I finally got a hair cut the other day.  Yeah, its pretty short, its about an inch or so long instead of the once seeming three to four inches that I had…ok I’m exaggerating, but I don’t know, I don’t have a ruler and measure my hair where ever I go.  Anyhow, Well, the whole thing about a new character coming to the comic, I am slowly working on drawing him or her.  It just been so long since I drew the other characters and scanned them in and retraced them and stuff that I forgot how to draw them just right.  And by the way, what I said about me redrawing everything…yeah, I don’t know if that’s gonna happen.  But hopefully I will get to the settings.  Anyhow, I’m gonna work on that stuff now.

12/19/03  10:24 pm

Sorry about that earlier.  So nothing really going on lately, I have just been playing video games when I am not in the bedroom for 5-6 hours at a time going through my shit.  Last night Tye came over he spent all his time helping us with our computers.  See, what happened was a few months back my dad was working and saw that someone threw out three computers, and he picked them up.  They were all in fine working order except that the hard drives were missing.  So my dad bought a hard drive so that he could put it one of the computers and actually get a decent machine going.  The computer he has upstairs right now is an Acer 386. It has Windows 3.1, yeah, that’s old, it also has Windows Works instead of Microsoft Word.  Well, anyhow, since he only needed on computer, Tye took a different tower, gutted it out, and pretty much put my stuff into the bigger tower with a bigger power supply.  So now I can have two disk drives and it won’t take 20 minutes to copy one fucking CD.  Plus he put in some more RAM, so it doubled the speed of my computer.  But the hard drive my dad bought was an 80 gig.  Yeah….i have a 20 gig in my computer right now.  But luckily my dad is gonna let me have the 80 and he takes my 20 when I get done with it.  Sweet, four times as much space and I don’t have to pay for anything.  So when I get back, to college, the computer will be all pretty.

12/19/03 8:31pm

I can’t stand this right now.  I hate being home.  I don’t have the internet, nor do I have anywhere the amount of freedom that I deserve.  I can’t update any of my comics, read any comics, talk to my friends from college, ask them how their breaks are going.  Mine sucks, but I just feel like writing this shit down to get it out of my head and off my chest. I guess I will post it when I get back.  Anyhow, since I don’t have a job for over Christmas break, I have certain “jobs” to do around the house.  The main one is that I have to go through everything in my room.  Yeah…I suppose that I can consider my self a pack rat typish person.  So I have gone through about three paper bags of recycling and two bags of garbage that has been released from my room so far.  But it is so damn emotional for me for some reason. I am going through all this stuff from when I was in high school, middle school, elementary school and such, so I am seeing all this stuff with pictures that I am in, or just objects that used to make me so happy.  This huge chunk of 20 years of memories I am sitting in the middle of my bedroom floor while trying to decide what pieces of my childhood I want to throw away and what parts I want to keep. Then I see these notes.  Notes that used to mean so much to me.  Of course they are from a girl, and I suppose anyone that is close enough to me knows who they are from.  But as I sat there reading them, I realized now how much I had, how much I tried to have, and how much I lost because I fucked up.  Because I didn’t chose the right way to say something, or I just waited a day too long to say something.  Everything I used to be able to have it now gone.  Not one trace of getting it back either. Not one fucking thing I can do.  Not one thing. Some people moved away, some people died, and some just flat out told me they never wanted to talk to me again….it just hurts so much.  I don’t even remember that last time I felt like this.  Shit, I don’t even remember the last time I cried like this.  Yes, are you happy, I actually opened up for once, I don’t even know why I even bother telling you people this shit. None of you care what happens or what had happened in my life. If you did, you would try to talk to me, try to ask me questions.  None of that shit…you never fucking bother do you….

12/11/03 5:19pm

I hate girls...ok, not so much I hate them, I wish I could hate them.  You know what they say, "Women, can't live with em, and if you fuck a guy you're gay"  Well, anyhow, I was in one of the CA's rooms and the three of us were talking and Steve and I started saying how unfair women were to guys and such.  But of course the girl in the room had to try to disagree.  I just think its bullshit that guys always have to make the first moves, why cant girls.  And if you start with the thing that thats the old fashioned way or thats the way it always was.  Then maybe i should completely follow the old fashioned way.  That means that women should stay in the kitchen and not vote or drive.  Yeah, thats right, times change stupid.  Women can tell guys they like them. I mean, if you leave everything for us guys, you are gonna get stuck with the short end of the stick, cause us nice guys are sick and tired of getting shot down by all the bitches that pretend to like us to get us to do whatever they want us to do and then the sleep with our best friends.  Yeah, thats bullshit in my book, i dont know about yours.  However, i can see their side to it...i mean....um....they are girls. Yeah.....dumbass.   I also think its funny how girls think that all guys think about is sex.  Thats funny, cause all i think about is video games.  And i hear more guys talk about sex, but that doesnt meant that girls arent thinking about it.  But you know what else 'THEY' say.  "Why do men have dirtier minds than women?  Cause women are always changing their minds."  or something like that.  Who cares. Im done now i think.

11/24/03 2:18am

Wow, that was a complete failure, hell, i didnt even update it within almost two weeks.  Why do i try to excel myself in all these directions when i know from the start that I will never accomplish anything that I want accomplished.  I just wish that I could take a break, not from this webpage, I mean, from everything.  I need a break from life.  I realized this while studdying for my exams that I have within the next few days.  I just cant wait till i got home during thanksgiving break.  Then i realized, I dont want to go home. Then I reazlied, that going home or staying at school, neither is going to make me forget about all the terrible things in life.  Nothing seems to help anymore.  I may have mentioned this already, but frankly, nothing really makes me happy anymore, except getting drunk.  And lately, I havent really gotten drunk. So frankly this isnt helping me at all. Sometimes i wish life had a soundtrack, or my life i should say.  I just wish that some people would hear the songs that go along with how i feel, that way I dont have to talk about my feelings.  That way i dont have to share my emotions.  I want people to feel sorry for me, but not at the same time.  I guess what i am trying to say is that I have the feeling that no one cares.  No one ever tries to understand me.  I just want them to know what kind of mental and emotional problems i have to face every day.  But i dont at the same time because i am not an attention whore.  I just never get credit for the stuff i deserve.  Sure, i might get a Donner Duke award for carrying a Tv upstairs or working on homecoming.  But thats not important.  No one cares that i do stuff that is important.  But, whatever, no one reads this anyways...

11/09/03 8:57pm

Ok, heres the deal, I am going to try to update the journal...maybe once  week, but ideally, everyother day....so most likely, it will be every other week.  Nothing much happend today...or this weekend for that matter.  Friday was just a night of playing Cranium and such...Oh, and thats when i took, like 25 different people's pictures with the panda mask that is mentioned on the Panda Chronicles page.  I posted some more pictures.  Last night i drank a little and watched some anime...boring night, then today i went to my grandparents for Thanksgiving.  I know Thanksgiving isnt for a few weeks yet, but they go down to arizona and such each year....so yeah, thats all for now i think....yeah, ok

11/07/03 1:29am

I dont even know why i try with this webpage anymore.  No one fucking comes to it, only two people that i know of have been to this godforsaken site in the past two months.  I wonder sometimes why i waste all my time and effort on something that no one appreciates.  I mean, if someone fucking told me once in a while that i was doing a good job, or that they like this or that...then maybe.  But no one fucking cares... all that i get now are bullshit and more bullshit...I took a break from my comic a while back and didnt update it for two weeks or whatever.  The only person that even mentioned anything about it was my brother.  The main reason why i stopped it for a while was that no one was saying that they liked it, in fact, within a week, three people put time out of their schedule to rant on and on about how shitty and terrible the comic was. Three people....within a week.  I was seriously considering shutting the site down, or maybe just finishing up the comics and then shutting it down.  But then i decided to just keep it up for a little while just to see what is going on. So far, i dont know whats going to happen.  I redesigned it sorta, but no one but my brother liked it.  Maybe i will just shut it down.  I just gotta finish up the comics i have first.  Boy was i a fucking moron to think that i would be a comic writer.  At least people like Jasons.  At least there is one successful person in this family.      My eye is starting to twitch again....and I'm slowly starting to lose sleep again...why is this happening...nothing is the fucking same anymore...what the hell is wrong with me....i think i am done writing for the night....maybe if i am not lazy, i will update sometime this weekend.

09/14/03 5:34pm

Argh, just waiting for people to come get me for supper....hopefully. Well, so far i have been here for three weeks...it seems like longer...but thats not a bad thing. My classes are not too bad so far. In fact, one of my classes i actually cant wait to get homework in. ITs a creative writing class, then i have and astronomy class, its not too bad, except the teacher is kinda hard to understand, and i think the chairs, are closer to the row in front of us than i think a plane. Math, psych stats, isnt too bad, its in clow for three hours each tuesday, but thank god its in a room that has swivel chairs instead of those death chairs, you know, the wooden desks. I also have another class in clow, its for public relations. But i have a question, anyone who goes to UWOshkosh, did you notice that Clow smells like a combination of sweaty armpits and coffee? Anyhow, guess what, i hate how girls get mad at guys for being sexist...cause i saw this rather...how should i put this....she was rather developed....but she was wearing a tight tanktop with SEX written across the front. Hmmmm, and i wonder why she thinks guys are sexist. Anyhow, nothing much going on in my life....like usual, although there a quite a few people that i want to kick their ass. But i dont know if they read this or not, so im not gonna say names. ALthough, i think a few of them are too fucking stupid to sit through this long of a reading to actually get all the information in....oh well, until next time....um, read my damn comic....yeh, and sign the guestbook.

09/04/03 9:40pm

Holy shit, i had one post for august, and this will most likely be myone post for september, since i am so good at keeping this whole thing
going. Well, i think i will describe the stuff that happened over the
last half a month, to the best of my memory.....shit...what month was
it...oh yeah, october...wait thats next month...
August 15th
I went to go see Freddy vs Jason with my brother....it was much better
than i had expected it...even though i mainly saw all the jason movies
and just a handful of freddy movies, it still kicked ass, considering
that the movie was mainly Freddy oriented. But going opening night was
an experience alright....yeah, it's kinda nice to know that there are
stranger people than me...actually, cancel that, its scary. A lot of
people dressed up there.
August 16-17th Went to Djs
grandparents cottage with my brother...and sean, and his girlfriend,
and Stanky, and shwank....yeah it was a bit crazy. I got all sorts of
fucked up. The bar near there doesnt card apparently, so if it wasnt
for the fact that i passed out on the couch before everyone left, i
would have gone with.
Yeah, just click this to read my brothers journal.
August 19 Well,
it was a very warm day, glad that work was almost over before i moved
back to college, for a few reasons. Well, it was a very warm day, so
of course it sucked to be trimming at an open field park. Legion park
in case anyone from DePere cares. Any how, Im trimming by the softball
fence on the out side of the diamond, near second base. My trimmer
suddenly runs dry of string, so i shut it off just in time to hear the
engine sputter a but, i glance over my shoulded just in time to se a
puff od smoke apear, and not even a second later, a ball of fire the
size of my head is just inches away from burning the shirt off my back.
Well i just whip that fucker off my back and just book it back to the
truck, which is right by the 1st base dugouts. I think thats the
fastest i have ever run. Ever. I was afraid that the tank would
explode or something becasue it was a full tank, i had filled it maybe
45 minutes prior. I got on the radio and called back to the secretary
at the MSC and they got ahold of the fire department and they came
over. I got more shit from that event than all the stupid stuff i have
done over the summer combined. Thank god it was the last week.

August 22 Last day of work....and i end up getting stung by
a bee right in the morning....i didnt think anything of it, im not
allergic or anything. But the next day i wake up, my arm is about
twice the size of what it should be. So i go to the doctor and get all
kinds of medicine...turns out it makes me drowsier than ever....all
this two days before i move into the dorms....i didnt want to pack at
all, I was just too damn lazy.
Nothing really important happened
after that, except my room kicks so much ass, i love it, well, if
anyone is in UWOshkosh, come visit....

08/06/03 9:13pm

Wow, August, can you believe that another soundtrack is just ticking away. wow, anyways, today was all sorts of fucked up, when i came home from work, i took a nap cause i was tired, you know digging holes and screwing things is tiring, anyhow, im sleeping on the couch and my brother comes home. He mentions how power went off at work or something, then apparently i start yelling at him in my sleep, it was one of those things where you are talking in your sleep and you sorta wake up during it, but then i feel back asleep, then i come up stairs after i wake up, and hes all pissed at me, i didnt know what was going on. oh well. So, i just finished one of the scariest movies i have ever seem, not so much as spooky, but scary as, ohmy god, this could happen. Final Destination 2, yeah, it wasnt bad for a sequal, but the first scene when everyone dies...well, i shivers up my spine and shit from that. I actually felt sorta sick. But the most disturbing thing about this movie, is that there is a music video on the dvd, THe Sounds..with some song about something involving a week or somtihng, i dont know, but its like a swedish 80's sounding badn with a chick singer....*shuder* Oh yeah, i should have mentioned that to be a spoiler, mainly because it spoiled everything fun about the dvd. anyhow, this past weekend i saw 28 Days Later. IT was surprisingly good. I heard bad reviews and stuff about it, but i thought it was quite kick ass. Yeah, so yesterday i cleaned the fountain by union hotel, if you people are from depere, you know where i am talking about. But it was bullshit, there was only 63 cents in it. Fucking cheap bastard kids. Kids these days get 50 bucks a week for allowance...hmmm, bullshit fuckers. Why do those kids have to be so greedy, i mean, just thow a quarter in there, that would make me happy, not one dime and a nickle, then 48 pennies.....bastards. i coldnt even buy a soda. Speaking of, you know what i realized, i realized how much people these days, just have to just sit back and relax with a cold soda, and just enjoy it. I mean, god DAMN people. OH yeah, incase many of you care, SHINOBI ROCKS. I thought i might just toss that in there, oh yeah...R
RUROUNI KENSHIN ROCKS as well. jeezus, how the hell did that get there. Oh well, oh yeah, i dont know if i mentioned that my comic site is up, its updated hopefully every monday and friday night. We will see what happens once college starts. By the way, go to my brothers site, taxiness, its on the links page, he has a forum up in there, just sign up and you can post like no other. hehe, well, this is getting a bit long, so i will let all you go until the next time i am not lazy...PEAVE

07/28/03 6:58pm

Holy shit, i am just kicking ass on my summer check to do list thing, for a while there i didnt even think i would get half of it done. But here i am now, 7 out of 16 done, one more should be done within the next few weeks, and one will deffinately be done by the end of august, so that means 9/16, not bad for a slacker like me, but then again, looking at the list again, i can probibly get three more done by the end of summer. Oh yeah, i am still going strong. By the way, one of my summer goals was to get my webcomic up, and now the site is pretty much up and or on its way, you can check out the first comic that i just posted not half an hour ago...oh fun fun. BUt, i shall retire to the ps2 and or surfing, i dug holes and poured concrete at the playground we are building, so im kinda tired. Talk to you all later. By teh way, the link for my comic is on the link page, see ya there.