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Web-Journal Archives...explanation.
Yes thats right, its the Web-Journal Archives...yeah. So my journal page is starting to get a little long, and i know you dont want to wait that whole extra second that it takes to load that old information. I also didnt want to just throw it to the wind...whatever the fuck that means...and lose it forever. So i can just toss the extra crap in here for a while and you can always look back upon it and laugh.

  Old Web Journals:

07/26/03 7:11pm

Hmmm, i should have waited for a few more days, then i could have gone the whole month without updating the website. So, long story short, its been a busy month, it seems like just yesterday was the 5th. Well, to help you out a little bit, i am gonna break down some of the month to help you out as to what is happening to me in my life. Not that many of you even go to this website anymore. Yeah, lately i have actually been working on my webcomic. so far, i have two finished, but i am slowly working on the website process, i am sorta learning HTML from my brother. Poor jason, but he somehow has pateience with me to teach me stuff....here, let me show you something look at me, im bold and shit how do you like that. Yeah, i knew you would. so, anyhow, the 5th of July was pretty fun. We blew shit up as usual, we took badass....hmmm, that didnt make sense, we took black cats and bottle rockets and blew stuff up. I have a badass looking can from the result of a bottle rocket, i mean, it actually looks, fake, the hole i mean. hopefully if i get off my lazy ass, i will take a picture and post it on the site. But then the usual creepy stuff we tried to do with the spirits and cemetary and shit sorta went on, but it was me, jason, justin, tye, and doug that went through the cemetary as Matt and jenn sat behind because they were all scared and stuff or something. But anyhow, we are leaving the cemetary and we notice a cop that was by jenn and matt, hmmm, this might be bad, so i say, justin dont say anything. We walk up and the cop notices us and takes our ids to make sure we have no criminal record and stuff. You know, all the usual cop stuff, but then he asks us where we were coming from...justin says we went for a walk...which would have been fine if he stopped there, but after the pause, he says in the cemetary. That could be bad, so then the cop asks us why were in there, justin starts to explain the whole spirit thing, the cop asks if we were on drugs or drinking. At this point i think, oh shit, he is gonna search our car, you know, the one with the brick of blackcats and a shit load of bottle rockets, and a dagger of mine(which slices soda cans quite well for how dull it is)....hmmm, i wonder if i would have gotten a conceiled weapons charge. thank god the cop just kinda shook off that idea. Well, last weekend i went to Antigo with matt and bought more...um, soda can openers. Then this past week jason, tye, matt, jenn, and i went camping, it was pretty fun, except for the rain last night. But while we were there, i found a hatchet. Matt said, out of all the people there, i probibly should have been the last one to find it. dont really know what that means. Anyhow, thats about it, but it sucked coming home, i mean i had to unpack the van while my mom told me what to do with it. I mean for crying out loud, i just spent a week with my friends, drinking sodas, burning things, chatting and having fun....jeez mom, how about a little me time. You know what, i realized something that women say about guys that is just a lie. you know how guys buy sports cars to make up for something that they lack, and i think you people know what i mean....penis... Anyhow, i think that is totally untrue, look from the mens point of view, if that statement is true, do we sit around at look at cars and say, wow, he must have a small penis, he is driving a hummer, or, hey, he must have a big penis, he is driving a geo metro. NO, we dont, well at least I dont, i say, damn, that is one sexy car, since women dont like me, my car will. hmmm, thats enough for today, thats a long entry.

06/29/03 3:24pm

Holy shit...long time no see. Wow, i only have to beat Tekken Tag Tournament 17 more times...whew. So, last week was Cream My Pants week. For some reason lately there are a SHITLOAD of Corvettes around DePere, and i saw what looked like a Porche. Sure enough, it was a Porche 911, but then, i saw two parked right by each other in one of the parking lots. Then, something even better happened, i saw a fucking Dodge Viper...oh my god. Just sexy as all hell. Not too much has been happening lately...last weekend i drank myself retarded and threw up most of the night apparently. I dont remember anything, but apperently i kicked Tyes ass at Bushido Blade when i didnt even see the screen. I also passed out while trowing up and such. Well, it was a fun night, then the next night i drank with jason, tye, jeff, jess, and myself. We had a fire outside and we got to burn things. I didnt get too drunk that night. Anyhow, this weekend, it was pretty cool, except for my Woodmans expreince. like i may have mentioned about a month ago, the whole candy apple and tommy KNockers experience, well, friday, there was no tommyknockers...at all. No spots ont eh shelf or anything....SERIOUSLY...>WHAT THE FUCK. Grr, anyways, yesterday, i went to the mall in Appleton and shit like that, yeah....i know hate media play even more now. Mainly because they let annoying girls, like two certain ones in specific into the store. From then on out, they scream and yell stupid things and make me wish i didnt like anime. One of the girls....aka the really ugly one....apperently made out with a Kenshin T-shirt. Oh am i pissed. Anyways, even matt said that if it were possible, he would wipe the whole Media Play expereince out of his mind. Even if it meant that the didnt remember playing the demo for Soul Calibur 2. Anyhow, then we went to Chuck E Cheeses and let me just say, i DOMINATE Star Shooter...or whatever the fuck the name of the game is. But it was fun, i got a disco light from it and im happy about it. Yeah, i forgot to say somthing sorta humorous, on THursday, i kinda got a truck stuck on a curb at work...it kinda sucked, but it wasted an hour of my time. anyways hmmm, forgot where i was going with this...not that it realy matters, i mean no one really comes here, i mean, i went more than half a month without a real journal entry, and no one seemed to care. But i can explain one thing about that though. i mean, if you miss one, then you just dont feel like typing...hmm, lets see, heres a good example. For class you have to read ch1 or something for wednesday, sounds pretty easy, right, well, you read it, then oyu gotta read ch2 for friday, doesnt sound hard, but the next thing you know, class time comes around, and yotu didnt read it, thats ok, ill read ch3 and 4 tonight, wont be hard, but then you just dont feel like reading twice as much, then the next thing you know, you arent going to class anymore...its known as the snowball effect. The more i miss a journal, the more i would have to type later, and im too lazy to type some of the stuff later...well, like right now, im too lazy to type anything else, so im done now...

06/16/03 5:47pm

Wow, this seems to be a weekly thing lately...ahh, scary clowns are having a party. Shit, what does matt want...brb

06/09/03 5:56pm

Happy birthday mom...yeah. So, i am kinda pissed, last Tuesday i updated, and i made a HUGE entry and it was all funny and stuff...you know...like usual...but the fucking site didnt remember to save it. Im possitive i clicked the button...stupid website Oops, oops i say, im a big dumb moron website...i dont understand anything becasue im a dumb free website...blah blah blah, i dont even barely know how to use HTML i say cause i dont know the difference between saving and LYING! Well anyhow, i guess i gotta get you guys back on track of things. Since i found out on tuesday that it didnt save, it kinda was right before i went to bed, so i was to lazy to type it again, and was pretty much too lazy since then to type this explanation. Well, since then, we have caught two more squirrels, stupid squirrels thinking they are bunnies...hehe. Well, since i realized that there are so many stories containing squirrels...either being smart, funny, stupid, or just damn squirrel like, i decided to make a squirrel page. It is the one named Squirrel Tailes. See, it didnt know if i should have called it tails or tales...see, its funny cause tails would have been a pun, so i didnt want you guys to be all like, DER, i be smart, i think of puns and blah blah, im smarter than you, you know, that kind of stuff...so i combined the two...understand? Ok, yeah, so get your squirrel fix on that page. Lets see whats been happening since then....i fell down the hill at work last week, that was pretty funny, except for the almost landing in traffic part. Oh, and today, I was cleaning out the bathrooms at the parks, and someone confused the urinal for a FUCKING TOILET. yes, someone took a shit in the urinal. Dont ask me what they proved by that. But if any of you did it...im gonna kill you..... hmm so check out the stuff...and stuff....yeah. oh shit, i almost forgot the best part....I GOT THE PS2 BACK BABY!@!!! Guess who has been practically playing that nonstop this weekend...i will give you two hints...its me. Oh, speaking of, ive been doing all this typing and wasting my time for all of you, i hope you appreciate it, i mean, i could be reading my webcomics....who knows, penny arcade might even be funny, eh, who am i kidding...

06/01/03 8:43pm

I cant get enough of you baby....the only Smashmouth song that i can stand....sorry...Holy Shit its JUNE....only three more months till school. Hells yes. Its not that i like classes...i just hate being home...except for the internet rocks...and the massive amount of video games...and the food....and the fact that i acutally have money...well there are a lot of reasons....especially when your parents leave for the weekend. Like this past weekend. It was nice to have them gone, you know, since i have been home for two weeks, already i am sick of them. But they could be worse. So i drank this weekend. I didnt really get drunk...but i got a hybrid of hard core buzzing and drunk sorta...well, when you get up at 5:50 every morning, and then stay up till 3am doing a power hour with shmirnof ice...it kinda fucks with your overtiredness...dammit this song is still playing. Stupid winamp, play more than smashmouth, it keeps repeating it. What the fuck, thats the only song on the playlist....there we go, thats better. So, my parents put out a rabbit trap, cause my mom keeps getting her flowers eaten...so this saturday i look outside...and a fucking Squirrel was in the trap...hehe stupid Squirrel. This is pathetic, i didnt know how to spell Squirrel so i just typed it in google and they corrected it for me...so i copyed the word and whenever i type the word Squirrel, its actually just me pushing CTRL V. But in this proccess, i found a Squirrel fishing page...stupid Squirrels. http://www.eecs.harvard.edu/~yaz/en/squirrel_fishing.html copy that link...hehe. Anyhow...well that was about it for the http://www.eecs.harvard.edu/~yaz/en/squirrel_fishing.html oh shit....i copied something else. Squirrel. There we go. I took some pics with my digital camera...check out the photo page. PEACE OUT-SIDE.

05/30/03 9:09pm

Holy shit...i am still alive....hmm, havent been on here in almost a week. So much has been going on lately....oh my god...a girl on tv just put her contact lense in with her toe. Cause she aint got no arms...holy fuck...thats messed up. Im making a pizza right now. hehe...hedgehogs rock. Stupid dog....At work this week, i got to clean out the VFW pool...oh my GOD it SUCKED! I hope those little pool pissing booger blowing punk ass little kids enjoy that damn pool...or else...I will get my backpack....matt and justin know whats up. uh oh...brb...dont wanna burn my pizza....well, guess who burnt their pizza...dont answer that...casue i dont wannt waste your time with you emailing me and stuff....i did. Haha, this show is funny, its like talk soup...but instead of talk shows...its reality shows...haha, stupid things...oh man...anyhow....shit...what was i even saying...this fukcing tv is bothering me...stupid things...hehe. yeah, so my parents are gone this weekend....(insert happy drunk face here) Hehe.....shit....what was i talking abou...oh im not drinking right now...im hyper as all hell. I need sugar..i emailed faygo about the soda...AND THEY DONT SELL IT ANY MORE!!! They dont even make it anymore...what the fuck is wrong with you people....that was the best shit ever. DAmmit all to chicago waht is...stop right there. Start over. Power stone 2 rocks. So far, since we had the dreamcast, we already own more dreamcast games than justin ever did. In case i didnt tell the story yet, justin is borrowing our ps2 for three weeks, and we get to keep his Sega Dreamcast. Oh my god those games kick ass....too bad the system kinda sucks.... oh well. welly welly welly. Um...thats enough for now..sdlhglkhtbmk

05/24/03 11:43pm

Hello, yes, i am alive. Its been such a long week. Sorry for not posting. Hopefully i will do a better job than posting ever week...well, practically. So, i finished my first full week of work. Oh yeah, i helped a guy named fuzzy paint lines on soccer fields, then on friday i did some weed-eating and some park cleanup stuff. Shit...i dont even feel like typing this stuff. Although last night...i was kinda pissed. Matt, Jason, and i went to woodmans. THe best grocery store ever. Anyhow...i went to get my favorite soda EVER! Candy Apple Faygo soda...unfortunately...it was nowhere to be found. Not even a label on the shelf....ok....so i went for the second best soda ever. Tommy Knockers Strawberry Creme soda....ditto. Fuck bitches. Anyhow...i ended up settling for some Faygo Raspberry Lemonade....grrr. But tonight was pretty good. I went to Celebrate DePere with Jessi. I dont think i ever mentioned her on here...but, its kinda a long story. Anyways...i got to go and listen to some ok bands play. But now i am just sitting down...and i am gonna stop typing. mainly because i dont feel like talking. And sorry for not being funny.

05/20/03 4:21pm

Whoo, wow, these are some crazy times. So i started my first day on the jobe yesterday, it wasnt too bad. The work itself wasnt bad, the day kinda dragged on though, then as soon as i came home from work, i had to go to the bank, then i came back, ate supper, then matt stopped by and we hung out for awhile until i went too bed to get up for work today. So i really didnt have time to write stuff in here. Oh yeah, for those of you that werent paying attention, i work for the city of Depere now...not shopko. To tell you the story, i told shopko that i wasnt coming back for the summer, assuming that i was smart, i could use the discount and come back during holidays like thanksgiving and christmas and shit. YOu know, mainly cause the job i have now is a summer job, so i only have it during the summer. But guess what, the retards at shopko thought that when i said, im not coming back for the summer, they some how thought that i said...i quit and never want to have a chance to work here again. I can see the simple mistake, i mean, they sound the same...right? Who cares, thats waht i was thinking in my head anyhow...uh oh....maybe it was a freudian slip, maybe i actually did say that....eh, who give a fuck, that building should burn down. Any how, today during wowk wasnt bad. i painted lines on soccer fields and stuff. Im kinda tired, my arms are sore, my feet kinda hurt, and im hungary....oh yeah, nothing like that good ol fashioned summer job feeling...i hate it. Anyhow, im going off on a tangent now, i dont want to make these past couple entries the longest ever....or do i?.....

05/18/03 5:07pm

Shit, this sucks. I've had no time in the past few days to update this. So Friday i moved out of the dorms until next year. Yeah, it was kinda weird, cause the last night, Matt and Doug stayed the night in my room, while i stayed up till 6am typing up a take home exam. We went to breakfast and as we just finished eating, the fire alarm goes off. Assuming its just a drill, we continue to sit and talk...that is, until a bitchy commons worker yells at us to leave, so we just leave out trays and/or mess at the table and head back to my room. WHen i moved out, it was messed up cause people actually came by to say goodbye, and most of them were girls!!!! How fucked up and cool is that. Well, two of them i got their info and shit, so now i can contact them over the summe and stuff. Sweet! Anyways, the last night was hilareous, mainly because DJ got all sorts of fucked up. Someone quote un-quote wrote on his face while he was passed out. Then he sorta woke up, and was all crazy yelling and rambling stuff. It was rather funny. Once my i develop my pictures and get my scanner working, i will post some pictures. Lets see, saturday was filled with unpacking and playing some last minunte Baulders Gate before we lend Justin our PS2 for the three week interim that he is taking. Also we got road Runner hooked up yesterday, hence the fact that i am typing this stuff online. Right now i am taking a break from unpacking, hopefully once all this crazyness gets settled down, i will be able to work on my comic. That is if i have some free time as soon as everything is settled. I have my first day of work tomorrow, hopefully it will be cool. I havent had a new job in forever. In fact, i started working at ShopKo in 1999, four years ago, when i was a ripe your teenage lad. So....yeah, i gotta go to bed early, and get up around 6ish so i can be to work by 7, then i get to work til 3. I apperently get to paint soccer fields tomorrow. oh yeah, incase you werent paying attention to where i work...too bad, you are stupid. Just kidding. I work for the city of DePere in the Park and Recreational Department. Whoa, sounds a lot better than saying, i unload trucks at Shopko. Trucks. What a stupid word. REV ER UP AND GIVER ER.

05/13/03 4:53pm

Whoa, this is really shitty, so its still finals week, well yeah, considering the last i wrote was...yesterday? yeah, yeah yesterday. So...finals suck...i was supposed to take one today, but it turns out that she changed it into a take home exam and its due on friday. Oh yeah, as you can see, the extra caffeene didnt kill me, and yes i did finish the book, the paper as well. It was kinda comical this morning when i tried to glue my sandal back together and i ended up gluing my hand to the desk and together...i just got the sudden urge to be a samurai.....anyways, the glue residue is still on my fingers, and my skin is on the desk...ow. I woke up Jeff by screaming his name with the Bonzi Buddy voice...aka the DEVIL. Anyhow, he is mad at me...Jeff, not the Bonzi Buddy. He is hinting that he is gonna send me gay porn in my email...well guess what buddy, you do have to go to those sites first...hehehe...please dont do it. Well, i think thats all for now...i gotta start collecting stuff that people borrowed through out the year...see you later.

05/12/03 2:21am

Yeah, so its now officially FINALS WEEK. Shitty. I am up with an urge to do other stuff than what i am staying up for. I suppose that extra pot of coffee was a bit too much. Well, if any of you dont see me tomorrow, or notice that my away messages are changing, than that means my heart exploded from the cafffffiiinnneeee. BAFJKLGALFKHEFLKgkdffdsslkvblkvdf fjdjfdjfdj DAMNnit.....Sorry, i had a short burst of energy. Frankly, i would have been doing my paper and reading earlier, but a lot of stuff happened. Well, i bought the book on Wednesday....put it off, then i was planning on reading some of it thursday, but the whole strip club incident happened...then friday, well, a bunch of girls came up that knew Tom from down the hall, and even though they were crazy highschoolers, they were much more entertaining than a 235 page book about a peach farmer. So then i started reading about 12 pages on saturday. It was a perfect day to read, it was all rainy outside, the breeze was nice. Frankly, i said...Dammit, im gonna read tonight and not get ....distracted....hey, look....and then i wandered off. The massive amount of rain caused the infamous MudBowl outside. Yup, MudBowl 2003. I almost got involved in it, by the time i got changed, after watching for a good hour, i started going downstairs and everyone was coming in. So i didnt get to play in the mud with the girls *insert sad face here* But then the CAs came and threatened to give people Incidence Reports and fines for all the mud that was tracked in. But me being the nice guy that i am, i helped my friends and moped (thats i took a mop and cleaned stuff...not walked around crying) around the floor and stairs and stuff. Then today, well, i have to finish the book, and do a bunch of other stuff...but i keep getting distracted, hence the journal entry. I need to go finish the last 70 pages now...then write the paper...shitty....see ya

05/09/03 3:04am

hehe, ok...today, was pretty much the best day that has happened all year. Nothing even remotely bad happened today that i can think of, other than i have no money for the next week. Well, to start things off, classes are almost done for the year, so few days left, considering the last day of classes is the 16th. Anyways, we had a raffle for the floor, and i won a Ali Landry poster. Hot! Then my buddy Alan won a 64oz mug that i bought from him. Then we had some left over pizza that no one knew was there...apperently. So i yoinked that. Then a bunch of guys on the floor decided to go to the strip club (actually they decided like last week, but they went tonight). Frankly after the last few times they wanted me to go, and me constantly turning them down, for some odd reason, i decided to go this time. I usually dont like ideas that involve anything that could potentially label me as a pervert, but i went. Frankly, it kicked ass. I was actually more comfortable about it than i thought. Even though a bunch of people tossed money together to get me a lap-dance, i still declined it. yeah i know, you probibly think i am retarded as all hell, well guess what...i dont give a rats ass. But it was all good fun, hopefully we can get the gang together next year and go. Also, i just wanna note, that i think its kinda weird that i've actually had about five people say that they wished that i updated more on my site...its kinda spooky in a way, mainly because, i know that people read this....oh well. I should be heading to bed, but knowing me, i wont for another hour or so.

05/08/03 3:22am

Yeah, sorry again about the not posting and stuff. Well, tonight i got to see a movie called Versus, it was pretty cool, it was a japanese movie that was pretty fucked up, but it was a bout a samurai who faught zombiews and shit, it was pretty sweet. i got to try Mountain Dew Live Wire, which is just mainly orange mountain dew. It wasnt bad, but i bought this bad ass Ghost Rider action figure, and some DVDs at wal-mart for cheap. I beat Baulders Gate....sweet game, cant wait till Dark Alliance 2 comes out. I have been frequency a lot lately, nothing much going on. so thats what i am gonna leave you with.

05/05/03 2:32am

lufe sucks, but its ok i guess, ugh, this weekend was a pretty shady weekend. well to recap
Friday: I went to bed early, but eneded up staying up till about 6. I just sat in my room, listening to my brother on WRST, from 6-9...played some Baulders Gate during the listening of the radio....i pretty much played it for 4and a half hours, until arounf 10:30 some fucktard pulled the fire alarm, resulting in me getting locked out of the buliding. Any how, i played Baulders Gate until 6 in the morning like the loser that i am.
Saturday: Leadership training...up at 8 in the fucking morning.. yeah, i was tired...cause we were told to get there early, so we waited forever for it to start. IT was long as fuck, and i wasted my time up until 2 in the afternoon at it. Then played some baulders gate some more, until the Hall Gov banquet. The food wasnt bad, but it only took up four hours of my life. I got back and thought about life. Mainly cause i was there, and i saw all the couples around me and stuff, and how happy every one was...i wish i was like that. From then on out til pretty much the rest of the night...just moping around and playing more BG...i realized how much of a loser i was, and frankly, i wish i had a girlfriend. I am almost feeling desperate right now, yes...i am that pathetic. Here i am confessing my relationship woes here on the internet for everyone to see...pathetic. Well, later in the night, me and Jason went to Walmart and Taco Bell to get all fooded up and then watched Spirited Away. it was not bad.
Sunday: Just layed in bed forever....read some homework.....was about to go to bed when Glenn told me about the new DOD (day of defeat (half-life mod)) file. They redid the game quite a bit...and i was playing that for awhile, then i started talking to my buddy/neighbor, he is reading THE book right now, so i am typing this....its about 3:32am right now. I will hopefully post tomorrow, or later today.

05/01/03 8:14pm

Wow, its May...that means two weeks of school left....holy shit. Well, not much happened today, or yesterday for that matter. Last night was casino night, nto too much fun for my part. But i did walk away with a bunch of leftover soda. Today in Active lifestyles, we played dodge ball...with vollyballs...yeah. not much going on, but i have a quiz on the main page if you wanna take it.

04/29/03 10:53pm

Oh my god, did stuff happen today. Well, i watched Run Lola Run in Journalism class today...why, i dont know really. it was an alright movie. anyways, i played half-life for a while, then went to dinner...why the shit am i typing all this stuff for, this isnt even the good part. Anyhow, after dinner, i went to Tyes room and got some Ting. But before that, he checked the mail, and .hack//sign was in his mailbox...OH HELLS YES!! Now its all mine...anyways then I came back to Donner and went downstairs to help out with auction night. What it mainly was, was a fund raiser for Hall Government, put on by hall gov. It was a Male/female auction. People would auction for 2-3 hours of that particular persons time. So we get to the last person, and i think its all over, but then Disty volunteers ME...what the fuck i asked. Eventaully a shitload of people bid on me. eleven dollars and fifty cents. I was the third highest guy. Now if thats not fucked up. Tomorrow is casino night, its gonna be messed up, im gonna be running 9-ball. Well, i gotta finish up the few things on my website, then i gotta do laundry. See you all later.

04/28/03 11:49pm

Nothing really happened today, i didnt sleep at all last night and spent most of the day thinking that it was Wednesday. A little while ago a bunch of us went outside and decided to pile on a person...not really mattering who it was...then people started climbing the building, which was cool and entertaining. I will put some pictures up in a picture section mainly labeled something like Donner (something or another) Plus i found the pictures of the fight that i mentioned on 3/27, apperently they werent lost after all, oh yeah. Unfortunately i will do that someother time, cause now its kinda late and i want to get some sleep tonight, for i have to get up at 8:30 tomorrow, and i want to hopefully fall asleep within the next four hours. Thats all for today.

04/27/03 8:23pm

nOTHING REALLY HAPPENDED THIS WEEKEND. Well except that i bumped the caps lock button, i would change it, but im too lazy right now to retype it. Plus by adding this explanation, people wont complain about the entry being too short...dammit, i again dont really feel like talking, so thats about it, most things happened friday night anyhow...see ya.

04/25/03 11:02pm

kinda missed the past few days for the journal...sorry, but life has kept me hostage and seems to enjoy fucking me up. Sorry, just a lot of shit has been going down, ive been feeling like shit, shit has been happening, and frankly, i dont feel like typing anything right now, but i probibly should. I just got back from the hospital about half an hour ago...some buddies got in a car accident, but i think their ok...im just glad they arent too badly hurt...well, i am gonna sign off now

See you...Space Cowboy.

04/21/03 10:51pm

Ok, sorry that i forgot to update it yesterday and stuff, my mind is just kinda...just been..well, its kinda like, I....its fucked....kinda like im drunk, in ever aspect except...well actaully its like im sober in nevery aspect except the way my brain is working, well you know, the logic and the part that knows whats going on. Its kinda like...well all the same shit seems to get going on, and if its not worse, its getting there...oh yeah, im now involved in like three more dramas, so i think that i am up to...lets see, eight i think...yeah that seems right. So right now, my brain kinda is like, i dont care whats going on any more...like before, im not happy, but its kinda like im not really sad. i dont know... Any how, Easter was ok, i got a game, some candy, and the city job that i wanted....oh yeah, Shopko is going to hell and back baby. HAHAHAhaha. Oh god am i happy. anyhow, i gotta do some reading, which i probibly wont do tonight anyways...well, hopefully i will update it tomorrow and on and on. See ya and stuff.

04/18-19/03, 3:36am

Ok, nothing much happened tonight, er toady, or whatever...i watched End of Days...which i do not really recomend to anyone, unless you like stupid movies with really nice speacial effects. Other then that, i cooked a pizza in my microwave, borrow a shit load of movies that i probibly wont watch half of. I ordered the series .hack off of ebay. More money that i cant afford to spend. Unfortunately, i wont really have time to updat tomorrow, due to the fact that i am mainly gonna get up, eat and go home, Easter stuff, then sunday, more easter stuff. Yeah, so thats about it, i made two wallpapers just now, one of which i am actaully proud of, i will post it in the photos section in a bit, but until then , see ya later...space cowboy.

04/17/03, 9:15pm

Holy shit i fucked up last night...just look at the previous journal entry. To put it bluntly, i got drunk, got in a fight, broke things, got hurt, pissed people off, yadda yadda yadda. Well, not too much is happening, mainly because life is pretty much sucking right now. Yeah...i think i am going to watch some anime right now...oh yeah, in case you didnt check it out yet, take a look at the Test and Test Results page for your anime quiz thing needs.

04/16/03, 10:59pm

I fucked up again today. But then again thats all i ever do anymore. I mentioned something during hall government tonight that i shouldnt have, i fucke dup and said tuff i shouldnt have,. ..i al so m issed class today and i and a retyard....so i drank....nothing wrong wiht that write?? No of course not, then again, its a taking foregevr to fix my damn spell,ing erroes, its been 20 mibnuts since i started the tyypifng.....dammit megan, fucing talk to me, you bitcxh...........you are so hot.. shit...............jessi is hot too....but thats a longa dn different story....whay am i typeing..... sit,,,,,what the fuck is wrong with me, i said stuff tonight art hall governement and im sorry cullen, igf ou are reaiding this, you read the comics so i know you gp here. CUllen, im sorry, i;ll make an ass of my sellg next time anf win....dude, im sorry..........fuckim stupid....

04/15-16/03, 2:55am

I cant believe i almost forgot to write in this for today. So much crazy stuff happened. For instance, while a bunch of us were eating, we noticed out the window that there was a car driving backwards down the one way street. Hmmm, a little odd you might think...well that is until you see about 20 more do that. We didnt know what to think at first, I thought it was some kind of stupid rally. But then we noticed that there was a fire engine down the street. Apperently there was a small fire ore a fire drill or something in the Clow building. Not very interesting. However, everywhere around on campus, there are chalk messages and stuff saying , Live Homos, and Live Homosexual Activities, and Kiss Me, Im Gay, and other gay shit like that. And i am not being politically incorrect this time...at least i dont think i am. Around there was also a DancePad that was labled Japanese Gaming. Hmmm, a chalk drawing of an electical unit that you can use to play Dance Dance Revolution, is sitting in front of the commons. Yeah. Also everyone that i was eating with thought that it was kinda weird that my neighbor John came over and handed me an apple, to which i satisfactorally smashed into my forehead. Sometimes its an impulse, you know like APPLE! *CRUSH* BANANA! *SQUISH* CHICKEN PATTY! *PLOP* HOT CUP OF COFFEE! *AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH* ok thats a little off topic. um........was i on topic? Oh yeah, on of my buddies down the hall tried to make a mud wrestling area outside. He took a huge recycling bin and filled it with water in our second floor bathroom, and it took three guys to carry down the flight of stairs into the backyard of Donner. Drew was just hoping that the massive amount of rain we were SUPPOSED to get could make a huge mud pool with tons of people mud fighting. Unfortunately, it dropped about 30 degrees from the temperature it was today. But about 10 people got muddy enough to mess up the bathroom and hallway. Oh well, im sure we will have another chance.

04/14-15/03, 12:11am

Nicotine, valium, vicadin, marijuana, extacy, and alcohol. Sorry, since i got a new hard drive, i am trying to replace all the music that was lost, and i just happened to be listening to an old Queens of the Stone Age song. Nothing much happened today, it was warm, 83 degrees infact. Kinda weird considering last week it was hailing, snowing and about a temperature of 17. Oh well. According to the test i took at the career center, artistic jobs are what my main intrests are. Whatever that means, yeah, so i installed some games on my computer, half-life and black thorn mainly. Now i can play games and stuff, and stay away from my homework even more now. Man, why do i do things like this, i know i have a short attention span as it is. Oh well, im gonna wander off now.

04/13-14/03, 2:09am

Yeah, so live feel apart to shit two weeks ago. However my computer died within the midst of it. So luckily my buddy JJ gave me one of his spare ones. SO i am now back in business. Let me catch you up to speed. A lot of drama went on, blah blah blah, Im the donner secretary for next year, yadda yadda yadda, i havent been getting shit for sleep, i think i have insomnia due to the huge amount of stress. Um, lets see. Yeah, last week with my computer dying, and not having a PS2, i spent a lot of time playing with a bunch of shitty PS1 games that i used to think were fun. But now Jason is letting me use our PS2 as he plays his roommates GameCUbe. Oh yeah, i didnt get the desk job, but oh well. Nothing really happened this weekend. I just sat around bored, playing PS2 and watching a shit load of movies. You dont realize how much free time you have when you dont sleep. But friday night i tried to go to a party with some buddies from the floor, but it sucked and we ran into some guy freaking out on the sidewalk. I was kinda scared cause he looked pissed and he kept swearing and yelling, i wasnt sure if he had a weapon or not. But walking back we had to be cautious, due to the fact that there were cops everywhere and stuff. But oh well, i guess i can start the daily thing again.

03/30-31/03, 12:39am

I really dont feel like typing anything right now, but i have to post shit every day...its one of the few good habits left of mine...and i want to at least have some sort of dignity. He, i just wanna give a shout out to two people...i hope you had fun at your fucking dance. They know who they are. As for this weekend...i gave up being sober...and i gave up my self-respect along with it. I pissed off one of my friends, and as of right now, the girl ia m trying to hook up with...well she wont even talk to me. Not that this really matters, i mean, what girl in her sane mind would even considering dating me. I also would like to say (even though he wont see it, and if he does, im hope that he/she appreciates it(and for privacy reasons, im not going to say this persons name)) i hope you feel better and we dont want to lose you. You are a good friend and would hate to see you leave. I wish you the best, and i hope things get better. well, i should get to bed, before anything gets out of hand, i have to keep some personal information to myself...

03/29/03, 7:44pm

im writing this thing now, cause i have no idea what kind of state i will be in later tonight. Last night, i was hoping that all the shitty stuff that was happening if i took a nice sleep. So after a 15 hour sleep, i wake up, and everything is the same, if not worse. Last night, tye, mike and I ran into three drunk girls. They were so happy and free, damn was i envious. Maybe after tonight, i will be that happy again....after 36 days without alcohol, i realized, i wasnt missing anything...who cares if i dont remember the weekend, there is nothing worth remembering...well, hopefully i can forget all this bullshit tonight.

03/28/03, 2:50pm

yeah, so things were deffinately not better this morning...i mean jeez, now apparently sides are being taken, and all that shit. It was really fucked up when i woke up this morning. Even though it was 9:30, no one was around. It was like a ghost town. I thought i was in Silent Hill or something, i was just waiting for some poorly animated dog to "jump" at me. BUt seriously, i took an exam today, that im pretty sure i didnt do too well on. And i just accidentally missed my other class, and knowing my luck, he probibly took attendance today. So far, the best thing about the day so far was probibly that turkey sandwich i had for lunch...tonight better be good, or i will be pissed. And if something interesting does happen, then i will add it, otherwise, imagine the worst....what a shitty time to quit drinking...its been 35 days...my god, it seems like longer....

03/27-28/03, 1:40am

Ok, things are just getting too fucked up. I am involved in like, four drama situations, and low and behold, two of my buddies on the floor decide to get in a fight, i will post some of the pictures probibly tomorrow or something. When i wake up, plus i got an exam to take at ten tomorrow morning, or should i say today, and i still have shit to do before i go to bed. I tell ya, it sucks. Oh, by the way, i made the decision about the dance thing, i decided to go, but my friend decided to change his mind once he found out i wanted to go. Hmmm, you think he is jealous? Anyhow, some of the other dramas going on are so fucked up that i didnt even want to get involved in them, but somehow fate changed that for me and decided that i should be a part of peoples lives getting ruined. And of course knowing my luck, i tend to fuck up things even worse than usual, and now the girl i am trying to go after wont even talk to me. I tell ya, things suck donkey balls. But i do have a plus side to the day....i played bingo at the Secretary/Treasurer social and one some Cracker Jacks playing cards, as well as got some more silly putty and some play-dough. I hope i do good on the exam tomorrow, but knowing that i probibly failed teh one today, and only got an 85% on the other exam i took this week, jeez, this is a shitty way to come back from spring break. I dont even know what to do anymore...I am actually open to suggestions. Oh god, my brain is in a fucking spiral and nothing is the same, its like everyhting is backwards, inside out, upside down and in the mirror, so i almost looks the same, but not. I cant tell night from day, right from wrong, left from the other left, its like i dont even know if i exist. Everything is just falling apart......

03/26/03, 3:40pm

Ok....what the hell is going on. Actaully i would like to say that i sucsessfully beat Silent Hill, yeah thats right. I only owned the game for about four years. But i even finished it with the Good(+) ending. Yay for me. Second of all, is this damn war still going on. I mean seriously, this is some dumb bullshit. I wanna say how stupid this is and that everyone should come home and we should make friends with the opposing country. But 1.) that is too hippieish for me and 2.) that would be impossible, becasue America is run by a bunch of people who cant seem to mind their own business. And for the record, i am not, i repeat, i am NOT a communist. But i hope people that i know who have friends and relatives at war come home safe and sound. Speaking of friends and such, i gots a problem on my hands. So, my friends girfriend wants me to go to a dance with her. Yeah, thats kinda weird in my book. I mean, would you go to a dance with your friends girlfriend...especially if your friend isnt even going to be there. All i know is that i have to make a decision by tomorrow.

03/25/03, 8:15pm

Yeah, so happy birthday dad...not that you have the internet, nor do you know i even have a webpage...but still, its the thought that counts. So, my class watched more than half of My Fair Lady today...did i mention how much i hate musicals. Especcially with songs that suck?!! Damn it all to hell. Yeah, I also bought the new Linkin Park CD today. It does indeed rock. It was definately worth the fifteen bucks that i plugged in to buy the special edition. Even though some people, especially one person in general who doesnt think that the extra DVD was worth the extra five bucks. Ok, whatever dude. I deserve that .hack game more than you do. Im a harcore fan of that show, and you dont even appreciate the free DVD that came with the game. I get it now, you must not like free DVDs...wuss. Anyhow, i should be filling out an application that is due at the front desk by 10:00. I hope i get that job, even though it would be like, four days for the rest of the year. Speaking of jobs, i hope i get that city job, but knowing my luck, i wont. I dont know what else to say, i hope that i dont get Donner Duke this week, i really didnt do anything stupid yet. But i have done stupid things for the past 5 weeks. But i will let you know that stuff in tomorrows update. Blah...

03/24/03, 6:50pm

Ok, its kinda scary that yesterday i mentioned a dummy (see below) and i dont mean a stupid person. Anyhow, i went to the counciling center today to find out what kind od career i want to get into, but the counselor had a fucking puppet that looked just like him. I mean seriously, what the hell is going on here. I mean, we are going to him for help, i dont think that this guy even has a degree...that thing was damn scary. Anyways, it sucks to find out that everyone else had a better spring break than me, considering the wisdom teeth thing. But everyon got all drunk and rode mopeds and stuff, shit...what luck i have. Anyways, im kinda pissed because i got up all ready to take and exam today, only to find out that its wednesday instead of today. Oh man....

03/23/03, 10:something

Well, i finally got back to college today at around 2:30. Spring break was a waste...all i did was sit in a chair in my living room watching daytime tv. I got my wisdom teeth pulled so i didnt work...oh how much better that would have been (sarcasm). So i just sat there hurting and taking pills. Each day more boring, but less hurting of the mouth than the next. However, daytime tv really sucks, after watching half an episode of Family Matters, i knew i had to find something to do. But, i eventually just watched more movies and tv. Played a little PS2, but that was it for the break, sucks on toast, doesnt it folks. Speaking of sucking, that episode of Family Matters was messed up for sure. I sure hope it was a Halloween episode, otherwise wooden dummies coming alive should be killed along with the show....stupid scary ventriloquest dummies......now how am i gonna sleep tonight....